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So, I stumbled across this blog and it took me a few seconds to recognize that an older version of me used to write once in a while. It's been years since I updated this site... I remember my initial reasons for writing..to "capture" my thoughts, to see how I change, what I feel and talk to myself at the excuse of maintaining a blog.

But then my ideas and thoughts and directions in life started forming and deforming at such mind boggling speeds that laziness got the best of me. So, well now I seem to have figured out myself a bit and can be back to business.

There have been way too many things that have happened while I was away - Obama saving the US face, Painful 26/11, Painful neighbor situations, Shilpa getting married, Tiger woods hiding away and Chetan Bhagat releasing yet another book ........ hmmph ! Ok, let me go figure this out.

These are a few of my favourite things....

No money, no fun?? I just thought of ten cheap ways to make myself happy.

1. Rain Rain, dont go away, let me get drenched, just for today.
2. The unadulterated chocolate, no milk, no sugar, only cocoa - Lindt
3. Pizza, movies and PJs on a lazy saturday afternoon.
4. Aloo paratha, pani puri, bhindi – not a combo though.
5. Shopping at linking road – pachas ka top, pachas ka top!
6. Gibberish with bum chums.
7. Swim at the beach, or just anywhere.
8. Seinfield, Friends, Sex and the city.
9. Dance and more.
10. Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. Non stop.

Aah, now I dont feel so bad being broke !

The Mystery of a Soul mate..

I was 16 when I thought I had found my love, my man, my soulmate. It's been such a long journey since, having found so many soulmates, different in so many ways. I wonder today whether it is possible to ever crown anyone with this deep meaning title. The soulmate at 16 was the naive kid next door, the one at 18 was a rocker, the one at 21 was a thinker. Mates for the same soul? How do I know at 25 that the mate I choose now will change with me the way I change in the very many years? And if he dosnt, how will he still remain my soul mate? Can I choose my soul mate today and know that we will still be the best suited mates for each other over the next 50 years, when we will earn our living diffently, like and dislike different people, face differnet circumtances, read and follow different philosophies, argue and make up unendingly. Will we still be soulmates?

I dont know....so much....

This is one of those spells when I break away from my routine. Just realised how I still dont know so much..how still people and situations surprise me..and hence this blog..my first one..

What do I look for in life? A bright future, good family and friends, good lifestyle and love? But these things are so temporary..they really are. They go away any time and then I am left wondering is this what I want??? n then I think and think and then they come back and I move on as earlier..again till they go away. Are these external things the only source of happiness for me?I think NO!! But then, when they disappear....when my job sucks, when my friends are far off, when there is no love to love, why am I lost??Is destiny in my own hands or is it already destined??I dont know ......

And is life all about finding answers to these questions or are there no answers and this is how I ought to live?

I don't know....so much!